Thursday, May 21, 2009

Mababaw issues.

Maraming taong nagsasabi sakin, "rhea, buti ka pa walang tiyan." True enough, haha. At hindi rin naman ako flat-chested. So dapat matuwa ako diba.


So sad. Haha. Kahit pa napakaliit ng waist ko, kung wala naman akong hips, mukhang direcho lang din ang katawan ko from below the chest area pababa.

Haha oo na, ang babaw ng issues ko. Hahaha kumusta naman :))

Nakakapagpalaki ba ng hips? Kung sino may alam pano sabihan niyo ko :)) Eh buto yun, diba? Although sabi ng tita ko, try ko daw magpuntang gym at maghanap ng person na makakapagdesign ng proper exercise and diet para tumaba ako, then papapayat na lang sa ibang areas except sa hips. Haha! Srsly, am really considering.

Pero kasi naman. It's so depressing. Lalo na ngayong summer. Hindi ko gusto shots ko pag nakaswimsuit kasi nga wala akong hips : Eh diba pag sa ganun, mas mukhang sexy tignan kahit hindi flat tummy basta well-defined ang curves from waist to hips. EH WALA NGA AKONG HIPS. Kaya mas mukha akong mataba kahit na hindi naman.

:)) shett natatawa lang ako sa kababawan ko. I can't believe I'm openly talking about my body issues :))

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Define malabo.

Pag 'nanjan, inaayawan mo.
Pag wala, hinahanap mo.

Gusto mong pakawalan.
Hindi mo kaya.

Gusto mong mag-isip.
Pero pagod ka na.

Malabo ka


I guess I need to really divert my attention to other things first. Keep myself busy. Be happy.

Early last week, at the peak of my confusion, all I wanted was to stay at home and be alone. Rant to friends. Sleep. Think. And think some more. But it's already been over a week, and I've done just that. I've thought of so many explanations, so many reasons...

I know the pros and I know the cons. But I can't seem to give weight to each for me to actually get to pit one decision against another.

All there's left to do is to DECIDE. And it's not in my capacity to do so. At least not at the moment.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

David Cook says it again.

"I can't get close if your not there

I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear

I can't fix you I can't save you

its something you have to do"

-this is what I want you to understand. What I'm doing now is something I must do on my own. So please stop the messages, they aren't helping. You're only luring me back in. But I can't go for feelings that are fleeting. 'Cause if I do the cycle would continue. And we don't want that. I don't want that.

And thanks to my high school girl friends :) Tuesday, it is :D So excited to see you again :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Cool off.

I need a time out. And thank you for agreeing.

You know this time will come. Dati pa. Diba? Dating dati pa.

And you know the long line of reasons.

I know it will hurt, but don’t think it doesn’t hurt me, too.

I’ve seen this coming waaay before.

This is the best way I can be considerate to you, to our issues, and to myself. It sucks, but it is [the best way].

We both know there are a number of things that are wrong about our relationship. I’m sure you would agree there are some things which aren’t right from the very beginning.

I’m not giving any guarantee.

But I loved you. I really did.