22, I feel her, too.

I have always been one to rant about not having enough time to do all the other things I want because of school. Now that I’m taking a break from school, I still find that I don’t have enough time to do everything. Errr. I guess that’s me trying to spread myself too thinly. (Although a little voice at the back of my head is saying “what part of ‘you and I have infinite potential’ don’t you understand?”).

You see, I love planning; it fuels my drive. But at the same time, I treasure spontaneity and being able to do whatever bewitches me at the moment. And so all my plans pile up, and then I decide to come up with a new one. The thing is, I don’t know whether I’d like to change that or not. Take planners, for example. Buying a new planner is something that always gets me excited when a year is about to end. And with all my heart, I really do intend to fill my planner and use it at all times. But then there always comes a point when writing on it or taking it with me becomes a burden. Heehee. But I will still definitely get a planner for 2011 :D

What I need is to learn how to focus on the present before something else comes along to divert my attention. I look up to people who get to do so many things and still manage to look fabulous. I’m trying to work on that :) As one of my baby steps, one mental exercise would be to rid my mind of negative thoughts and just focus—on the things I have to do, and the things I want to do. I haven’t heard yet of a genuinely happy and satisfied person who rants about “running out of time.” And so I shan’t :)