Tomorrow, or perhaps on Monday, my brother RJ and my cousin Jester will be moving in. My two-week solitary living in my condo unit (or rather, our condo unit) is about to end. Am I prepared to take on the challenge of looking after those two guys?
Two weeks ago, I felt like some sort of transformation took place. After having dinner at Yellow Cab, which is just at the lobby of this building, mom and dad accompanied me back to my room and left me alone to clean the still dirty unit. “Kaya mo na yan,” I remember them saying after bidding goodbye as they were walking to the elevator. The “na” in that statement is of utter significance. To me the underlying idea there is that now I have to grow up and start being responsible. It also speaks of me leaving my ever-dependent, childish self to be a more independent young lady. The “na” implies their acknowledgement of the fact that I’m not used to being left alone to take care of everything; nonetheless, it’s a way of saying, “It’s about time.”
Truly, it was about time. After all, I’m already a college junior; halfway through my undergrad, halfway to my elusive UP College of Law dream. Yet I still act like a child most of the time. (Let’s not talk about how I also still look like a kid. Haha).
So as I locked and double-locked the door, I stared in front of me: it was an extremely empty room. I had no company save for the two purple sofa-beds that perked me up a bit, the eyesore of a floor covered in dust, the fan (yes, dad denied me an aircon even if there’s an extra one at our house), the dish rack with the colorful plates, bowls, and tumblers, and a few other things. From that moment on I felt like a teenage drama queen again--- alone and left with so much to do. I kept wondering why it had to be the Sunday when Ate Neng takes her day off. It would’ve been way easier with our house helper to clean the place for me! Perhaps you’ve been a really naughty girl, Rhea, that’s why you’re punished like this, I thought. Actually, it was like one of the highlights of my life- no exaggeration. It was a perfect scene for a chic flick where the lead character is undergoing some inner transformation.
First thing I did was to mop the floor. I’ve never mopped a floor in my entire life! Ever. I was totally clueless. Dad told me to wet the mop, spill some amount of water, and sprinkle detergent all over. And I did just that- on barefoot! Can you imagine how sorry I felt for my precious feet? Ugh. I can’t help but imagine that that was really a scene on a movie where there's no dialogue but just scenes with matching girl power music. While mopping, I couldn’t help but utter, “I’m Rhealeth Ramos. I don’t mop floors.” I don’t know how many times I wished on the stars outside my window, facing Ateneo with their Church’s cross visible through my left window, that Ate Neng was there instead to do everything for poor little Rhea. But Rhea had to be strong. Rhea had to grow up. Rhea had to learn. Because she can’t be Daddy’s and Mommy’s little princess forever. So as I was mopping (and inwardly moping), I was listening to Jade, my dear laptop, as he (yes, Jade is a guy, ok?) played songs from my playlist. And then one song perfectly captured the moment and reminded me of high school graduation- Kelly Clarkson’s Breakaway. It was just so apposite for that scenario. And in a way, it being our high school graduation song, it somehow told me that I was, at that time, “graduating” from my helplessness to a new chapter of my life.
Sure--- I almost slipped a number of times, called my dad just to ask how to do it because simple as his instructions were, I couldn’t imagine how to do it right, and took more than three hours to finish cleaning the place including the disgustingly dirty toilet (another first! Sorry, segue again: you know, I even asked my dad if Ate Neng could come over at least twice a month to clean the bathroom for us. And all he said was, “madali namang maglinis ng banyo.”). But never in my life have I felt so proud of such good results from such hard work. I was teary-eyed upon seeing the white floor shining and shimmering in front of me. It was gray when they left! You know, I mopped the floor for about four or five times!
My routine has changed ever since I moved in here. 30 minutes or so has been dedicated to cleaning the place. I sweep once to twice a day, throw garbage regularly, fix my stuff so the room looks presentable… The people who know me would know that is really a big change for Rhealeth Ramos. I felt like how the room looks reflects how I am like as a person.
One night, my parents came over to check on me and stay for the night after Dad’s meeting in Zambales. Boy, was I so happy and proud and fulfilled to see the smiles on their faces and told me, “wow. pumasa ka!” I still feel like that each time I remember how I made my parents proud. See, it wasn’t too late for me to learn household chores, after all.
Admittedly, I despise doing chores. I wasn’t brought up to do those things. That Sunday when I found out I would be left alone to clean the place, I thought, “waaa! bakit nila ako papabayaan? waaah! poor me, kawawa naman ako.” I wasn’t accustomed to those things. But now I can see that they left me to learn those things for the better. Now I can earnestly say I’ve become a better individual. I was left alone with no one to call on to if I feel maimed and unable to finish the work. I had to persevere lest I could stomach sleeping in such a dusty place and take a bath in such an icky bathroom.
When RJ and Jester arrives here, it would be an altogether different scene. Now other than keeping the place clean and tidy, I have to look after them as well: I have to see to it that they go to class, that they look presentable before going to class, that they get to eat breakfast and dinner, that they study regularly, that I know where they are if they aren’t home by 8… Of course at least by then I would have two other people to share my load with. We’ve already discussed taking turns cleaning the unit.
On a lighter note, before I click the save button and go back to studying, let me just state this: I still think life would be easier if I’m alone here. Because when they get here, that also means I have to go home early or at least account for my late night arrivals. Hahaha!
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Monday, July 9, 2007
“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.”
-lifted from Semisonic's Closing Time :)
It has been a week and two days since I packed my bags and left Chesca’s apartment where I boarded for more than a year. Despite our lack of time for each other, Chesca remains as one of my true-blue friends. I swear, pwede nang pang Johnson & Johnson’s commercial yung moment nung paalis na ko sa 122B Matahimik!
About an hour before I left:
Chesca: Sandali lang ha. Maliligo lang ako. Sandali lang talaga. Wag ka muna mawawala.
Me: Sige lang.
As she went upstairs to take a quick bath, I remained standing amidst my stuff and held back tears as our memories together flashed… There weren’t too many. Nonetheless, those memories are dear to me. I told myself, “ireserve na lang yang iyakan mamaya, ha?”
The moment.
My parents finally arrived to fetch me. Sadly, I can’t vividly put the moment to words. But it was really a touching one: when I saw tears welling up Chesca’s eyes, when we hugged and said goodbye, when she helped me load my stuff, when we were both crying and crying, when I finally left…
Ain’t that sweet?
I remember how excited we both were when we transferred to the apartment. We made plans of going out, of camwhoring, of having regular sharing sessions… Actually, we never got to do those. Well, at least not regularly. We do go to PsychSoc night events together, we did have a camwhoring session one night, and we had spontaneous sharing sessions by the stairs..
*tear*
I remember coming home one night and crying hard. You were there to listen and comfort me. I remember the times when I go home past 12 after studying at Katips without a key to the gate or without enough force to open the door. You came down to let me in. I remember the spontaneous rantings and the quintessential making-each-other-feel-good. I remember our stairs-moments.
I remember a year of staying under one roof with a dear friend.
Thank you, Chesca.
Of course, I’ll miss my three room mates as well. Ate Dyan, Ate Em, and Ate Faith, thank you for putting up with my over-perkiness, with my random 1-hour rants, with my helplessness, with my 20-30-minute baths, with my messy bed… Thank you for being the unwitting recipients of my life stories. Hehe.. Hmp, I know namimiss niyo na ko ngayon jan! Hahahaha! Thank you for always reminding me: “Rhea, hindi ka na bata!” I know somehow you’ll be proud of me when you see how I keep my new place. I’m growing up, yes. Thank you. Promise, I really learned A LOT from the three of you. And hey, we’re still going out, right? Di pa natutuloy eh…
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I just feel so loved by the people around me. J Ain’t I one lucky girl? J
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“I’m Rhealeth Ramos. I don’t mop floors.”
Boy, that was only the beginning. Curious? I’ll write more about it and my “transformation” since I moved in to my unit in Katipunan some other time.
The line I used as the title of this entry is just so apt, don’t you think?
J
It has been a week and two days since I packed my bags and left Chesca’s apartment where I boarded for more than a year. Despite our lack of time for each other, Chesca remains as one of my true-blue friends. I swear, pwede nang pang Johnson & Johnson’s commercial yung moment nung paalis na ko sa 122B Matahimik!
About an hour before I left:
Chesca: Sandali lang ha. Maliligo lang ako. Sandali lang talaga. Wag ka muna mawawala.
Me: Sige lang.
As she went upstairs to take a quick bath, I remained standing amidst my stuff and held back tears as our memories together flashed… There weren’t too many. Nonetheless, those memories are dear to me. I told myself, “ireserve na lang yang iyakan mamaya, ha?”
The moment.
My parents finally arrived to fetch me. Sadly, I can’t vividly put the moment to words. But it was really a touching one: when I saw tears welling up Chesca’s eyes, when we hugged and said goodbye, when she helped me load my stuff, when we were both crying and crying, when I finally left…
Ain’t that sweet?
I remember how excited we both were when we transferred to the apartment. We made plans of going out, of camwhoring, of having regular sharing sessions… Actually, we never got to do those. Well, at least not regularly. We do go to PsychSoc night events together, we did have a camwhoring session one night, and we had spontaneous sharing sessions by the stairs..
*tear*
I remember coming home one night and crying hard. You were there to listen and comfort me. I remember the times when I go home past 12 after studying at Katips without a key to the gate or without enough force to open the door. You came down to let me in. I remember the spontaneous rantings and the quintessential making-each-other-feel-good. I remember our stairs-moments.
I remember a year of staying under one roof with a dear friend.
Thank you, Chesca.
Of course, I’ll miss my three room mates as well. Ate Dyan, Ate Em, and Ate Faith, thank you for putting up with my over-perkiness, with my random 1-hour rants, with my helplessness, with my 20-30-minute baths, with my messy bed… Thank you for being the unwitting recipients of my life stories. Hehe.. Hmp, I know namimiss niyo na ko ngayon jan! Hahahaha! Thank you for always reminding me: “Rhea, hindi ka na bata!” I know somehow you’ll be proud of me when you see how I keep my new place. I’m growing up, yes. Thank you. Promise, I really learned A LOT from the three of you. And hey, we’re still going out, right? Di pa natutuloy eh…
+++++
I just feel so loved by the people around me. J Ain’t I one lucky girl? J
+++++
“I’m Rhealeth Ramos. I don’t mop floors.”
Boy, that was only the beginning. Curious? I’ll write more about it and my “transformation” since I moved in to my unit in Katipunan some other time.
The line I used as the title of this entry is just so apt, don’t you think?
J
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Of "Intelligent Hearts" and (Future) Tuesdays with Tony
Yesterday, we had a "bayanihan session" (aka GK meeting) with Gawad Kalinga's father and Ramon Magsaysay awardee, Tito Tony Meloto and the rest of his team. Dylan Wilk, one of the top ten richest people in England (starting at age 25!) and who is now a full-time GK globe-trotting advocate, was also there in the meeting with us.
I've already heard some of what Tito Tony told to the UPGK Core Group two months ago, when i was overwhelmed with our small-group meeting during the International Leaders' Conference at Naga. The GK Institute, for example, is one. Nonetheless i was still amazed when they presented the developments in Gawad Kalinga. Particularly, the "GK Designer Villages" really caught my attention. Those villages were designed by architects who are GK advocates as well (whom Tito Tony calls "architects of hope"). And mind you, the villages were actually impressive. Tito Tony asked us, "does this look third world to you?" Definitely not. Sabi pa nga niya, "Kung ikaw architect at ginawa mo ang bahay ng mga mayayaman, no one will even notice or know that it was you. But if you do your work for the poorest of the poor (for GK), the whole world will notice. And you can proudly say it is your work." So true. Other than that, they also talked about the technologies being applied in different villages, most of which provide the means of livelihood for the people. It's a pity i couldn't write everything as vividly as possible. But it was just amazing and inspiring. (And by the way, forgive me for the lack of coherence in this entry. I've no time to edit it nicely so i'm just typing whatever comes to mind.)
Land grants and village donations (when we say village donations, we mean donations not just to help build a house, or for just one house, but donations enough for an entire village- complete with centers and whathaveyous that GK now develops) are not hard to get either. We were just all simply awestrucked by how they keep coming, left and right. Like, yesterday while we were in the meeting, we were shortly interrupted by a call from VP Noli de Castro's office. Tito Tony, "Yes, 5 hectares in (some place i forgot)? Alright, 5 hectares. Thank you (name of the secretary, which i also forgot)." And Tito Tony responded to it like it was something so ordinary, something he gets to hear everyday. There wasn't even much excitement in his voice. Or at least he didn't sound so excited as compared to when he was enthusiastically sharing to us the change that GK brings, and how Gawad Kalinga is now creating a buzz in the global scene. Because GK is more than just the houses. It's about transformation.
We also found out that the first thing Chiz Escudero did after winning the elections was to meet with GK heads. My memory, unfortunately, can't retrieve what exactly he talked about. But if i'm not mistaken, i think i remember Tito Tony talking about passing a bill or somehting like that. I can't believe i forgot an information as important as that. But all of us who were there would agree that it was info overload. But unlike in most cases, that "info overload" was the best ever. And i mean it when i say the best.
Kuya Pido, a magna cum laude psychology graduate from La Salle, declined the scholarship offered to him abroad to work full time for GK for a year. Tito Tony asked him to share to us why. Somehow, i saw myself in him when he was sharing about his thoughts when he was a child. He said that since he was a kid, he has always wanted to help the country. And now, that dream is a reality. I remember that during elementary we were often asked to write essays about how we can help the country. The answers had always been the same. "In our own little way... through studying... etc etc." But frankly, i was never really convinced that would help. Not that i'm not a fan of education. In fact i do believe education is one of the most important things one can have. But i always wondered how come there are so many intelligent people and yet there are still people who live in poverty everywhere we go. And alas, through Tito Tony's words, i found the answer. We lack "intelligent hearts." All we do, we've always been doing it for ourselves. It has always been about us. Sure, people are into charity. But poverty cannot be solved by just that. Dylan Wilk shared that a great percentage of the youth in the United States are taking antidepressants. And he relates it primarily to the fact that most people are concerned only about theirselves- self interest, self gain, self, self, self. But there is a hole. And i remeber self-actualization being at the top of Maslow's pyrmid of the hierarchy of needs. Most people stop at a high level of self-esteem. But to be self-actualized entails doing things not for yourself but for others as well.
Dylan Wilk said, "i've travelled the world in search of a good cause where i can put my money and found nothing that really works. Until a Filipina friend of mine (rhea's note: that Filipina friend is Tony Meloto's daughter, and now Dylan Wilk's wife) told me about Gawad Kalinga. So I decided to visit the Philippines and take a look. And it just blew my mind. Finally, i saw something that really works!" And that was just the beginning. He left his luxurious life in England, became a Filipino at heart, and now travels around the globe (just like Tito Tony) to share the GK model of community-building. The next World Youth Day in Sydney, Australia will also be about Gawad Kalinga. How great is that?
Even Bill Gates is amazed with Gawad Kalinga. And that's no exaggeration. Tito Tony has been going around talking to top executives, leaders, and the likes (in short, VIPs) to talk about GK. Philanthropy is a big thing in the first world, and those people agree that THERE IS NOTHING LIKE GK. Students from Ivy Leagues like Harvard and Stanford will be visiting the Philippines to study GK. Tito Tony asked us if maybe we (the UPGK Core) can sort of "adopt them" and guide them in their stay. Or soemthing like that. He wants UP to be at the forefront. He said, "this is the start. We'll be spending the rest of our lives together." Every month, on a tuesday, he'll be meeting us and discussing plans. Now how cool is that? After the meeting, Kuya Eric Pasion (UPGK's chair) told us, "consider yourselves lucky. Tito Tony is a very busy man and for him to go here and spend hours with us,and even set monthly meetings with us, that just means you're all important." And that's just so overwhelming.
When we were asked to introduce ourselves, the team (Tito Tony's team) was happy with the fact that we were multidisciplinary. It was actually what they want for GK. As i have always emphasized, GK is not merely about houses. It's about holistic development. And Tito Tony said, "that's why we want you. we want you to help us apply your knowledge in your different fields to our villages. and we want the best of the best- the brightest and the smartest. i don't know all of you right now but just looking at the looks on your faces i can tell that i am indeed with the best. UP being the premiere university, i want you to lead the other universities and help them build up GK. and whenever you have an idea, just tell us. things are getting really exciting." They asked us about our plans and for some ideas, and it was nice to see in their faces that they were pleased.
*I'm now considering giving up one year before going to law school to train under GK. The biggest obstacle to that, though, would be my parents' approval. (And for those of you who are close to me, you know how badly i wasnt to go to law school. So you would know that for me to consider delaying one year for Gawad Kalinga already says a lot.)
I love the Philippines. I have always wanted to be a prime mover. And now i'm just so grateful that i am already one. I once heard of GK during the first ILC i attended at Subic. I was a new YFC member then. It was the summer before i entered college. That's when i first heard Dylan Wilk and Tony Meloto speak and i was throngs of people away from them. I was at the back. And now, two years after, they are already talking to us, looking at us and listening intently as we speak. These are two people i really look up to. And to have them around, discussing things and being treated as part of the key people they have to tap... Wow. I really don't know how to put my feelings into words. Wow. I always dreamed of being with important people, doing important things. I always wanted to do something great for the country, though i never had the formula. GK has that formula. And i feel so blessed to be part of that team. I thank God for giving me this wonderful, wonderful opportunity to realize one of my dreams at an early age.
Tomorrow, June 21, there will be a GK pep rally at the Araneta Coliseum from 12:30-6. It will be attended by around thousands of people from the country and across the globe. If you still have class, you might want to follow and hear good news firsthand. :) For UP students, faculty members and staff who are interested in joining, you may want to visit the YFC tambayan at the AS101 and ask the poeple there. If you know me personally, just contact me. :) I have a class 'til 1 and i'll be going there after. If we reach 65, they'll be providing a free bus for us. And by the way, deans of some colleges are going to write memos to profs telling them they have the option not to hold class and ask the students to attend the rally.
For the UP community: We have always wanted change. We live in a culture of nationalism and activism. Let's put our activism into concrete actions. We are known to be the brightest and the best. If the brightest and the best help the poorest of the poor through GK, then what a wonder that would be. (Pahabol na kwento: The UP Madrigal Singers had been training kids from one GK village. And now those kids will be going to Singapore to perform.)THINK OF WHAT YOU CAN DO. The possibilities are endless.
That would be all for now. God speed. :)
I've already heard some of what Tito Tony told to the UPGK Core Group two months ago, when i was overwhelmed with our small-group meeting during the International Leaders' Conference at Naga. The GK Institute, for example, is one. Nonetheless i was still amazed when they presented the developments in Gawad Kalinga. Particularly, the "GK Designer Villages" really caught my attention. Those villages were designed by architects who are GK advocates as well (whom Tito Tony calls "architects of hope"). And mind you, the villages were actually impressive. Tito Tony asked us, "does this look third world to you?" Definitely not. Sabi pa nga niya, "Kung ikaw architect at ginawa mo ang bahay ng mga mayayaman, no one will even notice or know that it was you. But if you do your work for the poorest of the poor (for GK), the whole world will notice. And you can proudly say it is your work." So true. Other than that, they also talked about the technologies being applied in different villages, most of which provide the means of livelihood for the people. It's a pity i couldn't write everything as vividly as possible. But it was just amazing and inspiring. (And by the way, forgive me for the lack of coherence in this entry. I've no time to edit it nicely so i'm just typing whatever comes to mind.)
Land grants and village donations (when we say village donations, we mean donations not just to help build a house, or for just one house, but donations enough for an entire village- complete with centers and whathaveyous that GK now develops) are not hard to get either. We were just all simply awestrucked by how they keep coming, left and right. Like, yesterday while we were in the meeting, we were shortly interrupted by a call from VP Noli de Castro's office. Tito Tony, "Yes, 5 hectares in (some place i forgot)? Alright, 5 hectares. Thank you (name of the secretary, which i also forgot)." And Tito Tony responded to it like it was something so ordinary, something he gets to hear everyday. There wasn't even much excitement in his voice. Or at least he didn't sound so excited as compared to when he was enthusiastically sharing to us the change that GK brings, and how Gawad Kalinga is now creating a buzz in the global scene. Because GK is more than just the houses. It's about transformation.
We also found out that the first thing Chiz Escudero did after winning the elections was to meet with GK heads. My memory, unfortunately, can't retrieve what exactly he talked about. But if i'm not mistaken, i think i remember Tito Tony talking about passing a bill or somehting like that. I can't believe i forgot an information as important as that. But all of us who were there would agree that it was info overload. But unlike in most cases, that "info overload" was the best ever. And i mean it when i say the best.
Kuya Pido, a magna cum laude psychology graduate from La Salle, declined the scholarship offered to him abroad to work full time for GK for a year. Tito Tony asked him to share to us why. Somehow, i saw myself in him when he was sharing about his thoughts when he was a child. He said that since he was a kid, he has always wanted to help the country. And now, that dream is a reality. I remember that during elementary we were often asked to write essays about how we can help the country. The answers had always been the same. "In our own little way... through studying... etc etc." But frankly, i was never really convinced that would help. Not that i'm not a fan of education. In fact i do believe education is one of the most important things one can have. But i always wondered how come there are so many intelligent people and yet there are still people who live in poverty everywhere we go. And alas, through Tito Tony's words, i found the answer. We lack "intelligent hearts." All we do, we've always been doing it for ourselves. It has always been about us. Sure, people are into charity. But poverty cannot be solved by just that. Dylan Wilk shared that a great percentage of the youth in the United States are taking antidepressants. And he relates it primarily to the fact that most people are concerned only about theirselves- self interest, self gain, self, self, self. But there is a hole. And i remeber self-actualization being at the top of Maslow's pyrmid of the hierarchy of needs. Most people stop at a high level of self-esteem. But to be self-actualized entails doing things not for yourself but for others as well.
Dylan Wilk said, "i've travelled the world in search of a good cause where i can put my money and found nothing that really works. Until a Filipina friend of mine (rhea's note: that Filipina friend is Tony Meloto's daughter, and now Dylan Wilk's wife) told me about Gawad Kalinga. So I decided to visit the Philippines and take a look. And it just blew my mind. Finally, i saw something that really works!" And that was just the beginning. He left his luxurious life in England, became a Filipino at heart, and now travels around the globe (just like Tito Tony) to share the GK model of community-building. The next World Youth Day in Sydney, Australia will also be about Gawad Kalinga. How great is that?
Even Bill Gates is amazed with Gawad Kalinga. And that's no exaggeration. Tito Tony has been going around talking to top executives, leaders, and the likes (in short, VIPs) to talk about GK. Philanthropy is a big thing in the first world, and those people agree that THERE IS NOTHING LIKE GK. Students from Ivy Leagues like Harvard and Stanford will be visiting the Philippines to study GK. Tito Tony asked us if maybe we (the UPGK Core) can sort of "adopt them" and guide them in their stay. Or soemthing like that. He wants UP to be at the forefront. He said, "this is the start. We'll be spending the rest of our lives together." Every month, on a tuesday, he'll be meeting us and discussing plans. Now how cool is that? After the meeting, Kuya Eric Pasion (UPGK's chair) told us, "consider yourselves lucky. Tito Tony is a very busy man and for him to go here and spend hours with us,and even set monthly meetings with us, that just means you're all important." And that's just so overwhelming.
When we were asked to introduce ourselves, the team (Tito Tony's team) was happy with the fact that we were multidisciplinary. It was actually what they want for GK. As i have always emphasized, GK is not merely about houses. It's about holistic development. And Tito Tony said, "that's why we want you. we want you to help us apply your knowledge in your different fields to our villages. and we want the best of the best- the brightest and the smartest. i don't know all of you right now but just looking at the looks on your faces i can tell that i am indeed with the best. UP being the premiere university, i want you to lead the other universities and help them build up GK. and whenever you have an idea, just tell us. things are getting really exciting." They asked us about our plans and for some ideas, and it was nice to see in their faces that they were pleased.
*I'm now considering giving up one year before going to law school to train under GK. The biggest obstacle to that, though, would be my parents' approval. (And for those of you who are close to me, you know how badly i wasnt to go to law school. So you would know that for me to consider delaying one year for Gawad Kalinga already says a lot.)
I love the Philippines. I have always wanted to be a prime mover. And now i'm just so grateful that i am already one. I once heard of GK during the first ILC i attended at Subic. I was a new YFC member then. It was the summer before i entered college. That's when i first heard Dylan Wilk and Tony Meloto speak and i was throngs of people away from them. I was at the back. And now, two years after, they are already talking to us, looking at us and listening intently as we speak. These are two people i really look up to. And to have them around, discussing things and being treated as part of the key people they have to tap... Wow. I really don't know how to put my feelings into words. Wow. I always dreamed of being with important people, doing important things. I always wanted to do something great for the country, though i never had the formula. GK has that formula. And i feel so blessed to be part of that team. I thank God for giving me this wonderful, wonderful opportunity to realize one of my dreams at an early age.
Tomorrow, June 21, there will be a GK pep rally at the Araneta Coliseum from 12:30-6. It will be attended by around thousands of people from the country and across the globe. If you still have class, you might want to follow and hear good news firsthand. :) For UP students, faculty members and staff who are interested in joining, you may want to visit the YFC tambayan at the AS101 and ask the poeple there. If you know me personally, just contact me. :) I have a class 'til 1 and i'll be going there after. If we reach 65, they'll be providing a free bus for us. And by the way, deans of some colleges are going to write memos to profs telling them they have the option not to hold class and ask the students to attend the rally.
For the UP community: We have always wanted change. We live in a culture of nationalism and activism. Let's put our activism into concrete actions. We are known to be the brightest and the best. If the brightest and the best help the poorest of the poor through GK, then what a wonder that would be. (Pahabol na kwento: The UP Madrigal Singers had been training kids from one GK village. And now those kids will be going to Singapore to perform.)THINK OF WHAT YOU CAN DO. The possibilities are endless.
That would be all for now. God speed. :)
Monday, June 18, 2007
Daddy's Girl
This entry is a day late, but i just want the world to know: I'LL ALWAYS BE DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL :)
I know he won't get to reads this.. nonetheless i'm not embarrassed to tell everyone how much i love him. I think i've mentioned him a number of times already and i don't feel any need to say everything again.
His will always be the arms that make me feel safe. His will always be the love that no one else can give. His will always be the face i'll always cherish. His will always be this girl. :) Nowadays he keeps commenting he no longer has his baby girl. Well, i have indeed gone far from the fat baby he used to carry in his arms. But i'll always be my father's baby. No matter the age. No matter the circumstance. No matter the differences. He'll always be the great guy i look up to. And i'll always be his only little girl. :)
I know he won't get to reads this.. nonetheless i'm not embarrassed to tell everyone how much i love him. I think i've mentioned him a number of times already and i don't feel any need to say everything again.
His will always be the arms that make me feel safe. His will always be the love that no one else can give. His will always be the face i'll always cherish. His will always be this girl. :) Nowadays he keeps commenting he no longer has his baby girl. Well, i have indeed gone far from the fat baby he used to carry in his arms. But i'll always be my father's baby. No matter the age. No matter the circumstance. No matter the differences. He'll always be the great guy i look up to. And i'll always be his only little girl. :)
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Ezekiel 22:14
"Will your heart be able to resist, will your hands be strong on the day i call you to account?"
-->just a question to ponder upon. it got me thinking, and alas i realized that as of now, my answer to that would be "no." perhaps you'd like to think about it as well, and let's all strive so someday we can truthfully say "yes."
-->just a question to ponder upon. it got me thinking, and alas i realized that as of now, my answer to that would be "no." perhaps you'd like to think about it as well, and let's all strive so someday we can truthfully say "yes."
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Libre
Sa mga pagkakataong umuuwi ako ng Laguna na hindi ako sinusundo, sumasakay ako ng MRT.
Kanina, nagulat akong sarado ang lahat ng windows at sumisigaw si manong guard na, "libre ang sakay! libre ang sakay!" Syempre, nagtaka naman ako. Inisip ko, "ano kayang meron? bakit libre?"
Naisip ko: "why is this ride free?"
Sa salitang "free," saka lang pumasok sa isipan ko. Oo nga pala, Independence Day ngayon. Hindi naman sa noon ko lamang naalala. Pero nawala na iyon sa isipan ko buong araw, marahil dahil sa hindi pa rin ako enrolled.
Ewan ko sa inyo, pero ako, hindi ko naramdaman na ipinagdiwang ang araw ng kalayaan. Mula doon ay maraming bagay ang bumagabag sa aking isip.
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Mga katanungan:
1. Bakit 'di gaanong lumilikha ng "buzz" ang araw ng kalayaan kumpara sa ilang mga banyagang pagdiriwang tulad ng halloween?
2. Sadya bang wala nang pagpapahalaga ang mga tao sa araw ng kalayaan?
3. Nananatili pa bang may saysay ang pagiging malaya natin bilang isang bayan?
4. Hanggang "token benefits" na lang ba ang kayang ilaan ng pamahalaan tulad ng libreng sakay para sa mga mamamayan?
5. Wala bang mga programa ang gobyerno upang maitanim sa puso ng taumbayan ang pagmamahal sa kalayaang tinatamasa natin ngayon?
6. Tunay nga ba tayong malaya?
7. Kung papipiliin, mas gugustuhin pa nga ba ng karamihan ang maging malaya sa mga dating sumakop sa atin?
8. Ikaw na nagbabasa nito, ano ang iyong nadarama sa araw na ito?
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Marahil ang iba sa inyo'y iniisip na isa na ako sa mga taong nawalan na ng pag-asa sa mga kapwa ko Pilipino. Ngunit iyan ay hindi totoo. Oo, aaminin kong nakakalungkot isiping marami nang mga Pinoy ang walang kumpyansa sa kapwa Pinoy. Ni wala na ngang tiwala sa sariling abilidad ang ilan, lalo na't 'pag hinahambing sa mga banyaga.
Gayunpaman, buo ang aking loob na may pag-asa pa ang bansang ito. Pag-asang umahon sa ating kinalalagyan. Pag-asang buhayin ang diwang nagdala sa mga bayani noon sa mga bantayog na kinalalagyan nila ngayon. Pag-asang hindi iilan lamang ang nananatiling may pag-asa. At higit sa lahat, pag-asang hindi lang hanggang pag-asa ang mayroon tayo kundi sapat na pagmamahal para sa bayan upang kumilos at pagsilbihan ito.
Naniniwala akong malaki ang potensyal ng Pilipinas, ng Pilipino. Subalit kulang tayo sa bilib sa ating kapwa, ng pag-ibig para sa ating bansa. Hindi naman ako magmamagaling na magsasabing naiibibigay ko ang lahat ng aking makakaya upang maging isang mabuting Pilipino. Alam ko sa sarili kong marami rin akong pagkukulang.
Sarili. Marahil ay dapat tayong magsimula sa ating mga sarili. Ako mismo ay aminadong hindi pa ganoong kakilala at kamahal ang aking sarili. Ngayon ko lang napag-isip-isip na sa susunod ay idadagdag ko na ang "pagmamahal sa bayan" bilang isa sa mga dahilan ko upang mas lalo kong yakapin kung ano ako ng buong buo. Hangga't hindi ko nagagawa iyon ay hindi ko maasahan ang sarili kong mabigay ang lahat para sa iba.
Nais kong maipagmalaki ang henerasyong ito sa mga susunod na henerasyon. Hangad kong makapaglaan ng aking oras, talento, at talino upang masabi sa mga kabataan ilang dekada mula ngayon na hindi pinabayaan ng henerasyong ito ang ipinaglaban ng mga bayani sa libro.
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Magsimula tayo sa ating mga sarili. Ikaw, kilala mo ba kung sino ka? Tanggap mo bang hindi ka perpekto? At hindi mo ba hinahayaang maging hadlang ang kaalamang walang taong perpekto upang patuloy na magpunyagi upang mapaunlad pa ang iyong sarili sa iba't ibang aspeto?
Patuloy akong mangangarap.
Libre lang naman ito.
Ang may kapalit ay ang aktwal na pagkilos. Ngunit sa pagbibigay ng bahagi ng ating sarili, marami ang makakamit. Sabi nga sa Gawad Kalinga, "less for self, more for others, enough for all." Hindi maikakailang kailangang magsakripisyo upang makamit ang ating mga naisin. Ngunit kung para sa isang dakilang mithiin, ano ba naman ang iilang sakripisyo?
Ngunit bago tayo magmahal ng iba, mahalin muna natin ang ating mga sarili. Mahirap mamahagi ng isang bagay na hindi naman buo.
Patuloy lang tayong magmahal.
Libre lang naman ito.
Kanina, nagulat akong sarado ang lahat ng windows at sumisigaw si manong guard na, "libre ang sakay! libre ang sakay!" Syempre, nagtaka naman ako. Inisip ko, "ano kayang meron? bakit libre?"
Naisip ko: "why is this ride free?"
Sa salitang "free," saka lang pumasok sa isipan ko. Oo nga pala, Independence Day ngayon. Hindi naman sa noon ko lamang naalala. Pero nawala na iyon sa isipan ko buong araw, marahil dahil sa hindi pa rin ako enrolled.
Ewan ko sa inyo, pero ako, hindi ko naramdaman na ipinagdiwang ang araw ng kalayaan. Mula doon ay maraming bagay ang bumagabag sa aking isip.
+++++
Mga katanungan:
1. Bakit 'di gaanong lumilikha ng "buzz" ang araw ng kalayaan kumpara sa ilang mga banyagang pagdiriwang tulad ng halloween?
2. Sadya bang wala nang pagpapahalaga ang mga tao sa araw ng kalayaan?
3. Nananatili pa bang may saysay ang pagiging malaya natin bilang isang bayan?
4. Hanggang "token benefits" na lang ba ang kayang ilaan ng pamahalaan tulad ng libreng sakay para sa mga mamamayan?
5. Wala bang mga programa ang gobyerno upang maitanim sa puso ng taumbayan ang pagmamahal sa kalayaang tinatamasa natin ngayon?
6. Tunay nga ba tayong malaya?
7. Kung papipiliin, mas gugustuhin pa nga ba ng karamihan ang maging malaya sa mga dating sumakop sa atin?
8. Ikaw na nagbabasa nito, ano ang iyong nadarama sa araw na ito?
+++++
Marahil ang iba sa inyo'y iniisip na isa na ako sa mga taong nawalan na ng pag-asa sa mga kapwa ko Pilipino. Ngunit iyan ay hindi totoo. Oo, aaminin kong nakakalungkot isiping marami nang mga Pinoy ang walang kumpyansa sa kapwa Pinoy. Ni wala na ngang tiwala sa sariling abilidad ang ilan, lalo na't 'pag hinahambing sa mga banyaga.
Gayunpaman, buo ang aking loob na may pag-asa pa ang bansang ito. Pag-asang umahon sa ating kinalalagyan. Pag-asang buhayin ang diwang nagdala sa mga bayani noon sa mga bantayog na kinalalagyan nila ngayon. Pag-asang hindi iilan lamang ang nananatiling may pag-asa. At higit sa lahat, pag-asang hindi lang hanggang pag-asa ang mayroon tayo kundi sapat na pagmamahal para sa bayan upang kumilos at pagsilbihan ito.
Naniniwala akong malaki ang potensyal ng Pilipinas, ng Pilipino. Subalit kulang tayo sa bilib sa ating kapwa, ng pag-ibig para sa ating bansa. Hindi naman ako magmamagaling na magsasabing naiibibigay ko ang lahat ng aking makakaya upang maging isang mabuting Pilipino. Alam ko sa sarili kong marami rin akong pagkukulang.
Sarili. Marahil ay dapat tayong magsimula sa ating mga sarili. Ako mismo ay aminadong hindi pa ganoong kakilala at kamahal ang aking sarili. Ngayon ko lang napag-isip-isip na sa susunod ay idadagdag ko na ang "pagmamahal sa bayan" bilang isa sa mga dahilan ko upang mas lalo kong yakapin kung ano ako ng buong buo. Hangga't hindi ko nagagawa iyon ay hindi ko maasahan ang sarili kong mabigay ang lahat para sa iba.
Nais kong maipagmalaki ang henerasyong ito sa mga susunod na henerasyon. Hangad kong makapaglaan ng aking oras, talento, at talino upang masabi sa mga kabataan ilang dekada mula ngayon na hindi pinabayaan ng henerasyong ito ang ipinaglaban ng mga bayani sa libro.
+++++
Magsimula tayo sa ating mga sarili. Ikaw, kilala mo ba kung sino ka? Tanggap mo bang hindi ka perpekto? At hindi mo ba hinahayaang maging hadlang ang kaalamang walang taong perpekto upang patuloy na magpunyagi upang mapaunlad pa ang iyong sarili sa iba't ibang aspeto?
Patuloy akong mangangarap.
Libre lang naman ito.
Ang may kapalit ay ang aktwal na pagkilos. Ngunit sa pagbibigay ng bahagi ng ating sarili, marami ang makakamit. Sabi nga sa Gawad Kalinga, "less for self, more for others, enough for all." Hindi maikakailang kailangang magsakripisyo upang makamit ang ating mga naisin. Ngunit kung para sa isang dakilang mithiin, ano ba naman ang iilang sakripisyo?
Ngunit bago tayo magmahal ng iba, mahalin muna natin ang ating mga sarili. Mahirap mamahagi ng isang bagay na hindi naman buo.
Patuloy lang tayong magmahal.
Libre lang naman ito.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
It has been six months since...
...and i still haven't uploaded pictures from my 18th birthday.
Right now i'lm listening to the "soundtrack of my life." Or at least of my life's first 18 years. Truth be told, my debut was far from perfect. It wasn't how i planned it to be. And my rants can go on and on. But just a while ago, as i was going over the pictures and listening to the songs, i realized it wasn't so bad after all. Sure, i'm still kinda bitter with the fact that dad chose to buy a new video cam and a new camera instead of hiring a photographer (which, by the way, would have been the cheaper choice. not to mention the fact that i would have had nice pictures with everybody). But it was still that one special night of my life wherein all my cliques were present. Well, not all. But at least there were people from each. Now i reminisce about that night and instead of seeing the blunders, i see love. That night i was overwhelmed with the love of the people who were there. I wasn't able to really bond with any group because i was constantly being called by another. I felt like i could just multiply into as many as my guests so i can catch up with each of them. I guess i was so bothered with the things that didn't go well that i failed to realize one thing: i had, i have, and i will continue to have a happy life. :)
It has been six months since i celebrated my 18th. So much happened.
Now, as i am halfway through, i wonder what it'll be like after another six months.
I bet by then i'm more responsible and sensible. Oh, and definitely more charming and beautiful. Yes, that's what i call "trying to boost one's self esteem." Hehehe :) Whoever disagrees, you are free to close this window now. :) :) :)
Right now i'lm listening to the "soundtrack of my life." Or at least of my life's first 18 years. Truth be told, my debut was far from perfect. It wasn't how i planned it to be. And my rants can go on and on. But just a while ago, as i was going over the pictures and listening to the songs, i realized it wasn't so bad after all. Sure, i'm still kinda bitter with the fact that dad chose to buy a new video cam and a new camera instead of hiring a photographer (which, by the way, would have been the cheaper choice. not to mention the fact that i would have had nice pictures with everybody). But it was still that one special night of my life wherein all my cliques were present. Well, not all. But at least there were people from each. Now i reminisce about that night and instead of seeing the blunders, i see love. That night i was overwhelmed with the love of the people who were there. I wasn't able to really bond with any group because i was constantly being called by another. I felt like i could just multiply into as many as my guests so i can catch up with each of them. I guess i was so bothered with the things that didn't go well that i failed to realize one thing: i had, i have, and i will continue to have a happy life. :)
It has been six months since i celebrated my 18th. So much happened.
Now, as i am halfway through, i wonder what it'll be like after another six months.
I bet by then i'm more responsible and sensible. Oh, and definitely more charming and beautiful. Yes, that's what i call "trying to boost one's self esteem." Hehehe :) Whoever disagrees, you are free to close this window now. :) :) :)
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