-Blurbs-
Missed me? Hehe... Anyhow..
When my vacation started, i thought i'd have more time for blogging. Heck- i thought i'd be blogging about almost every single thing every now and then. But despite all the blog-worthy realizations i've had, all the thoughts running on my head and all the memories and issues worth writing about, i remained mum and decided to take a break from the cyberworld.
Actually, it's not really a "decision," but i just sorta didn't feel like talking about everything here. And it's not as if i lack the time, 'cause right now i'm an official bum. I've been thinking about it and i realized that perhaps i'm just happy with my life right now and i don't really feel like there's a need to post stuff online. This summer, i made my friends my blog. Well, to each a different story, of course. Hehehe.. :)See, i've always loved the fact i've got different sets of friends. Stuff that i can't tell to one, i can always tell to another. Vice versa.
Yeah, i know this isn't really a well-thought of writeup, considering that this is my first after more than one month (that seem like eons to me). But whatdaheck, i don't care. I'm just typing almost everything that comes into my working memory.
-So how's summer?-
Far from perfect, not outstanding... but definitely relaxing- just what i needed it to be.
Well, i still "work" but hey, that's for Gawad Kalinga. I've always believed that when you're passionate about what you're doing, it's not work at all. During our second night at Naga City for the 14th ILC, i was so honored to be part of the few college students and fresh grads who had a meeting with no less than GK's father, tito Tony Meloto. He was talking about a pioneering work he wants to start with us. It's a pity i can't say everything as aptly as he did nor could i relay articulately what we talked about. But i was really awestrucked then. Especially when we left the room and saw the thousands of other youth gathered outside singing praises. I was thinking, "geez, sa dami nila, ako pa isa sa mga nakasama." Oh, and i'm psyched that UPGK will be using Tony Meloto's and his team's new office at NCPAG. How cool is that? :)
There were lots of out of town trips as well. One thing: i missed doing that. I mean, last year, our family lost three members.. So it was only now that we've been going out again.. I remember when i was a kid.. Papa (my lolo) was always the one who initiated those trips. When he got sick, somehow those family trips were lessened. Most of the time we'd just gather and visit him.. Eating and sharing stories.. *sigh*.. i miss Papa the most. :(
Anyhow.. will post pictures of our trips some other time :)
Apart from my weekly visit to UP for UPGK's planner, bumming around, and going out with relatives, i did nothing else. Well, i didn't learn how to drive 'coz mom's resigning. So she'll be returning the company car that she's using. Hence, the extra car that we have, which i was supposed to use, will be used by her. Oh well. *sniff*.. (have to move on! have to move on!).. hehehe.. umm, i didn't learn how to bake anything new either.. but i still have a few weeks left before school starts, so i can still bug mom to teach me. :)
-In a nutshell -
Things are going well. :) Not perfect, but swell. :)
I don't know what'll become of me next sem. Heck, CRS decided to not love me. Hehe.. But i'll definitely do better next sem. I just have to. ;)
-A defining song-
Just a few hours ago, i found a song that aptly describes how i plan this year to be.. And how things seem to be going :) (well.. sans the "love" part, that is. none of that for now. hehehe)
THIS YEAR
Chantal Kreviazuk
This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun
This year, I'll paint my masterpiece
This year, I'll be recognized
I can feel like I'll fall in love for real
This year, this year
January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh...
This year, I'll reach the pinnacle
This year, I'll get to the top
People will ask where she get that energy
This year, I'm never gonna stop
January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh, oh, oh...
This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun
I'm gonna have fun
Just watch me now
This year
This year
This year
-Names, names.. Before i leave :)-
+ CHIZ ESCUDERO definitely deserves the top spot in the senate :)
+ PAOLA GRACE REYES, LIZA RIKKA MASCARDO, MARY JOY OMBAO, and CAREN AIMEE GEMENTERA, you girls are badly missed! kumusta naman sa hs barkada natin, ha? let's go out! let's go out! :D
+ To one of the very few people who i can tell almost everything to: CHARLES ICASIANO! Goodbye engg, welcome to cssp! :)
+ And can i just? TOBEY MAGUIRE looks funny when he tries to be dramatic. And oh, don't get me started about his attempts to dance. Nonetheless, he's hot. :) Hehe..
Monday, May 21, 2007
Monday, April 9, 2007
Speed
.Stationary.
God's love :) If there's one thing constant in this world, that's God's love :)Ever-present, not faltering a bit.
My psych grades. They haven't changed- always 1.75. I just wish my 115 would break the trend- for the better, of course. Struggling as i am with controlling my emotions, i might cry if i get a 2.
.Slow.
Progress in the country is slow. Service in a number of restaurants is slow. My brain is slow- or perhaps it just refuses to admit some information. We are slow. And i shall no longer elaborate on that. ;)
Slow to anger, irritation, irrationality, pagsusungit, and crying- that's something i'm trying to live by. And i'm struggling. It's hard, you know- "growing up" as a crybaby, a drama queen as i fondly label myself. But hey, i'm trying. Slowly i'm changing. At least now i recognize my irrationalities. Although sometimes the fact that i'm aware they are irrational and hence must stop just irritates me more. Like, can't i just rant and be irrational for one whole day without a care for anything? But after a week of reflection, i know that is not how a Christian should be like. Staying on the right path can be really hard.
.Moderate.
My feelings (to wherever with these crazy feelings!) are gradually changing- not too fast, not too slow. It's better this way- unlike before when i'd jump headfirst, or when i'd take sucha lazy stroll only to realize what i almost had when it's gone. But sometimes i can't help but think i shouldv'e left things as they were at the start. It was less dangerous back then. But hey, don't worry. I'm still holding on to my resolutions for this year.
.Fast.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! All of a sudden, i'm done with two years in college! I'd be pretty scared by now if i'm not planning to go to law school because it means i only have two years left before i work. You know work scares me. For now, at least. I feel like if i don't get a good job (by my standards and by society's standards), i'd be like a faliure- as if everything i toiled for becomes devoid of significance. But that's just the present me speaking. I'm pretty confident i'd be psychologically ready by the time i have to work.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! So much happened in the past school year, i barely kept track. A blurry of emotions, of sleepless nights, of staying at seattle's, starbucks, bo's, gloria jean's and mocha blends, of incoherence, of new acquaintances, of new experiences, of events and parties, of bigger responsibilities and challenges... So much in so short a time. If S=D/T, where D is distance and T is time, the "speed" of my life thus is equal to R=E/T, where E stands for everythings that has happened. And R, i tell you, would yield to such a big value.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! So fast i wish i have a remote control to slow things even for just a little bit, and to rewind some parts of the past year i want to revisit: the last days of my beloved grandfather, all the subjects where i did not get an uno (hahaha!), yesterday (when my precious bvlgari perfume fell from my table!), the mundane things in school that (simple as they are) are the moments that make UP life livable, my 18th birthday celebration, and some things i'd rather not mention ;)
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Sometimes, the things we want in slow-mo are the ones going "full-speed ahead" while the ones we want to go a little faster are the ones taking it slow.
Some things in life are meant to remain the same
Some are meant to be taken slowly
While some, no matter how much you want to slow it down
Will leave you breathless
with its speed.
God's love :) If there's one thing constant in this world, that's God's love :)Ever-present, not faltering a bit.
My psych grades. They haven't changed- always 1.75. I just wish my 115 would break the trend- for the better, of course. Struggling as i am with controlling my emotions, i might cry if i get a 2.
.Slow.
Progress in the country is slow. Service in a number of restaurants is slow. My brain is slow- or perhaps it just refuses to admit some information. We are slow. And i shall no longer elaborate on that. ;)
Slow to anger, irritation, irrationality, pagsusungit, and crying- that's something i'm trying to live by. And i'm struggling. It's hard, you know- "growing up" as a crybaby, a drama queen as i fondly label myself. But hey, i'm trying. Slowly i'm changing. At least now i recognize my irrationalities. Although sometimes the fact that i'm aware they are irrational and hence must stop just irritates me more. Like, can't i just rant and be irrational for one whole day without a care for anything? But after a week of reflection, i know that is not how a Christian should be like. Staying on the right path can be really hard.
.Moderate.
My feelings (to wherever with these crazy feelings!) are gradually changing- not too fast, not too slow. It's better this way- unlike before when i'd jump headfirst, or when i'd take sucha lazy stroll only to realize what i almost had when it's gone. But sometimes i can't help but think i shouldv'e left things as they were at the start. It was less dangerous back then. But hey, don't worry. I'm still holding on to my resolutions for this year.
.Fast.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! All of a sudden, i'm done with two years in college! I'd be pretty scared by now if i'm not planning to go to law school because it means i only have two years left before i work. You know work scares me. For now, at least. I feel like if i don't get a good job (by my standards and by society's standards), i'd be like a faliure- as if everything i toiled for becomes devoid of significance. But that's just the present me speaking. I'm pretty confident i'd be psychologically ready by the time i have to work.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! So much happened in the past school year, i barely kept track. A blurry of emotions, of sleepless nights, of staying at seattle's, starbucks, bo's, gloria jean's and mocha blends, of incoherence, of new acquaintances, of new experiences, of events and parties, of bigger responsibilities and challenges... So much in so short a time. If S=D/T, where D is distance and T is time, the "speed" of my life thus is equal to R=E/T, where E stands for everythings that has happened. And R, i tell you, would yield to such a big value.
Time! Time passes by so swiftly! So fast i wish i have a remote control to slow things even for just a little bit, and to rewind some parts of the past year i want to revisit: the last days of my beloved grandfather, all the subjects where i did not get an uno (hahaha!), yesterday (when my precious bvlgari perfume fell from my table!), the mundane things in school that (simple as they are) are the moments that make UP life livable, my 18th birthday celebration, and some things i'd rather not mention ;)
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Sometimes, the things we want in slow-mo are the ones going "full-speed ahead" while the ones we want to go a little faster are the ones taking it slow.
Some things in life are meant to remain the same
Some are meant to be taken slowly
While some, no matter how much you want to slow it down
Will leave you breathless
with its speed.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Yet another 1.75
in Psych, that is.
I never got any grade in psych other than that. makes me think: should i be a psych major?
I loved my Cognitive Psych class. it has been my favorite subject this semester. oh, and if you can just see my book! how i highlighted it, how i did my reviewers... and my final paper! that final paper. i exerted so much effort for it. and this is all i get.
but perhaps kuya art's text was the best thing i received this morning:
"hehe! At least 1.75 ka. Dats ma'am conaco.Ü"
he has a point. that came from the professor conaco.
and you know, despite my 1.75, i'm pretty happy (well, after ranting, that is). i learned a lot from the subject. i think i could've done better but hey, regardless of the grade, i know i learned much. the subject also gave me reason to explore my interests, specifically: linking psychology to law. after reading all those psych journals and even browsing through criminal cases, i felt that i do have a direction, that indeed i'm going somewhere.
and despite the low grade, i still love ma'am conaco! :) i felt sooo good about myself due to all the encouragement i got from her for my topic. if it wasn't for her, i might have given up easily. but just knowing that an esteemed doctor of psychology like her believes in me, well, it made me feel like i can really do it.
i was also ecstatic with the good feedback i got from some up law seniors. i found out that nobody in the philippines has yet probed much into the case i was investigating. and if given more time, my study actually poses important implications. i sincerely hope that i'd get another psych subject wherein i can delve deeper into that.
and so, heartbreaking as it was to receive yet another 1.75 from my own department, i just have to look back at the experiences i got from the subject and the fact that the grade came from ma'am conaco, the ma'am conaco.
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thanks, kuya art :)
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rheality: sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you still don't get what you expected.
rhealization: life must be really sweet when you find it easy to dismiss matters like this.
rhea-l issue: and yes, i'm still happy :) even if i might possibly not be in the CS list for this sem.
I never got any grade in psych other than that. makes me think: should i be a psych major?
I loved my Cognitive Psych class. it has been my favorite subject this semester. oh, and if you can just see my book! how i highlighted it, how i did my reviewers... and my final paper! that final paper. i exerted so much effort for it. and this is all i get.
but perhaps kuya art's text was the best thing i received this morning:
"hehe! At least 1.75 ka. Dats ma'am conaco.Ü"
he has a point. that came from the professor conaco.
and you know, despite my 1.75, i'm pretty happy (well, after ranting, that is). i learned a lot from the subject. i think i could've done better but hey, regardless of the grade, i know i learned much. the subject also gave me reason to explore my interests, specifically: linking psychology to law. after reading all those psych journals and even browsing through criminal cases, i felt that i do have a direction, that indeed i'm going somewhere.
and despite the low grade, i still love ma'am conaco! :) i felt sooo good about myself due to all the encouragement i got from her for my topic. if it wasn't for her, i might have given up easily. but just knowing that an esteemed doctor of psychology like her believes in me, well, it made me feel like i can really do it.
i was also ecstatic with the good feedback i got from some up law seniors. i found out that nobody in the philippines has yet probed much into the case i was investigating. and if given more time, my study actually poses important implications. i sincerely hope that i'd get another psych subject wherein i can delve deeper into that.
and so, heartbreaking as it was to receive yet another 1.75 from my own department, i just have to look back at the experiences i got from the subject and the fact that the grade came from ma'am conaco, the ma'am conaco.
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thanks, kuya art :)
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rheality: sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you still don't get what you expected.
rhealization: life must be really sweet when you find it easy to dismiss matters like this.
rhea-l issue: and yes, i'm still happy :) even if i might possibly not be in the CS list for this sem.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Moving on.
To all the graduating students, congratulations!
A number of people close to my heart are now moving on to something bigger- life after college. Some will be going to grad school, some are going to work, and some are going back to their respective provinces to pursue either one of the two. And I wish nothing but the best to them. They deserve it :)
One of the things I like best in UP is the fact that we get to mingle with all batches. I believe it contributes to the holistic growth of the students. Moreover, we get to forge a greater network of friends, each with something to share, and for each of which we also save a place in our hearts.
But that’s also the sad part.
We don’t get to say our goodbyes properly each year, when one by one they go. Unlike in high school where we are only limited to our batch and thus go sentimental as a batch, in college there’s usually no venue for such. People are always busy. All of us are. The next thing you know, they’re already gone and you haven’t even thanked them for everything. Just like right now--- there are things I want to tell the people who are graduating: I want to thank them, to tell them how they have influenced me, to say how much nice it was for having them around… how much I’m going to miss them. But there’s just no venue for drama like that. And sadly, no time either.
I feel like each year, the people who I consider to be my fortresses and my “models” leave one by one. Suddenly, half of my college life is over. So much (and I mean so much!) has happened. I feel like it went in a flash--- a bright, heartwarming one at that. There are a number of times when I’d feel like, “hey, I don’t want to grow up yet.” I look up to my ates and kuyas. I don’t think I’m ready to be like them just yet.
But we all have to move on, to step up.
It hurts to resist. And so the better way to go would be to just gracefully go with the flow.
I can’t be a baby forever. I want to, but I can’t.
Perhaps I have to grow up. I don’t know if I can be like them, but I will try hard. I owe it to them and to myself.
PsychSoc seniors! Graduating YFCs! Thanks much. You will be missed.
(Irinaaaaaaaa! Lalo ka naaaaaaa! Mommy abiiiiiiiii! Ikaw din! Kuya Ian, Kuya Paul! At lahat kayong mga ggraduate. Sa susunod gagawa ako ng entry para sa mga gusto kong sabihin sa inyo)
A number of people close to my heart are now moving on to something bigger- life after college. Some will be going to grad school, some are going to work, and some are going back to their respective provinces to pursue either one of the two. And I wish nothing but the best to them. They deserve it :)
One of the things I like best in UP is the fact that we get to mingle with all batches. I believe it contributes to the holistic growth of the students. Moreover, we get to forge a greater network of friends, each with something to share, and for each of which we also save a place in our hearts.
But that’s also the sad part.
We don’t get to say our goodbyes properly each year, when one by one they go. Unlike in high school where we are only limited to our batch and thus go sentimental as a batch, in college there’s usually no venue for such. People are always busy. All of us are. The next thing you know, they’re already gone and you haven’t even thanked them for everything. Just like right now--- there are things I want to tell the people who are graduating: I want to thank them, to tell them how they have influenced me, to say how much nice it was for having them around… how much I’m going to miss them. But there’s just no venue for drama like that. And sadly, no time either.
I feel like each year, the people who I consider to be my fortresses and my “models” leave one by one. Suddenly, half of my college life is over. So much (and I mean so much!) has happened. I feel like it went in a flash--- a bright, heartwarming one at that. There are a number of times when I’d feel like, “hey, I don’t want to grow up yet.” I look up to my ates and kuyas. I don’t think I’m ready to be like them just yet.
But we all have to move on, to step up.
It hurts to resist. And so the better way to go would be to just gracefully go with the flow.
I can’t be a baby forever. I want to, but I can’t.
Perhaps I have to grow up. I don’t know if I can be like them, but I will try hard. I owe it to them and to myself.
PsychSoc seniors! Graduating YFCs! Thanks much. You will be missed.
(Irinaaaaaaaa! Lalo ka naaaaaaa! Mommy abiiiiiiiii! Ikaw din! Kuya Ian, Kuya Paul! At lahat kayong mga ggraduate. Sa susunod gagawa ako ng entry para sa mga gusto kong sabihin sa inyo)
Saturday, March 24, 2007
end of sem, when are you?
one week left. just one more week.
+++++
on second thought, do i really want the sem to end?
come to think of it, this'll be the first time i'll be away from UP for two months. two months! hey, that's long. sembreak nga lang namimiss ko na UP. haha
i do want to rest. i guess i'm just going to miss the place. oh yeah, and the people. :)
+++++
aaargh. i wish i'm taking summer classes.
(yes, you can now officially call me a workaholic but damn, i'm going to miss UP!)
i feel like i'm going to miss a lot. i mean, hey, if so much can happen in a week, what more in eight?
kumusta, huli nanaman ako lalo sa mga balita. haha..
+++++
too many questions for the next days/months/years to come.
i say, what the?! stop thinking and just live each day. :)
+++++
tonight is my dear friend hanna's 18th birthday party, as well the last event for the YFC Campus-based before it changes in structure.
and yet, where am i again?
at home.
why?
to do stuff.
and have i accomplished any?
next question please.
+++++
i'm still on my toes. is that good or bad? again, whatever. at least i'm happy. :)
+++++
on second thought, do i really want the sem to end?
come to think of it, this'll be the first time i'll be away from UP for two months. two months! hey, that's long. sembreak nga lang namimiss ko na UP. haha
i do want to rest. i guess i'm just going to miss the place. oh yeah, and the people. :)
+++++
aaargh. i wish i'm taking summer classes.
(yes, you can now officially call me a workaholic but damn, i'm going to miss UP!)
i feel like i'm going to miss a lot. i mean, hey, if so much can happen in a week, what more in eight?
kumusta, huli nanaman ako lalo sa mga balita. haha..
+++++
too many questions for the next days/months/years to come.
i say, what the?! stop thinking and just live each day. :)
+++++
tonight is my dear friend hanna's 18th birthday party, as well the last event for the YFC Campus-based before it changes in structure.
and yet, where am i again?
at home.
why?
to do stuff.
and have i accomplished any?
next question please.
+++++
i'm still on my toes. is that good or bad? again, whatever. at least i'm happy. :)
Monday, March 19, 2007
because if i don't speak up, (and i won't speak up), i will never know.
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for more vague statements. haha
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you'd wonder how in the world i get to blog when i've got loads to do.
well, i was wondering, too.
and alas i found the answer, amidst my aching back and numb fingers and my already-hot laptop.
i crave for variety. i cannot be stuck with the same thing for so long. example: i am very much interested with my 148 research topic. and yet i can only type my review up to so and so number of minutes/hours. i'm constantly on my toes. moving to the pc to reconnect to the world, or going downstairs to have "live conversations" with my family. i can't stay focused on just one thing. well, i can. but i have a treshold.
i crave for variety. that's why perhaps i'll always be jumping from one place to another. i feel a need to have different groups that intertwine as less often as possible. i'm a different person in each. well, almost. i'm basically the same, plus/minus some things.
i crave for variety.
is it good or is it bad?
+++++
i noticed that i'm not the only one slacking off. misery loves company? haha.. nah.. perhaps it just goes to show that indeed, we need to slow down once in a while. even if it's finals week, just because it's when we felt the need. :)
it only struck me earlier through kat's lj entry that i only have a few days left as a sophie. wala lang.
but hey, i'm workingon school-related things. it's just that i feel i'm not giving the effort i should be giving.
1.48 gwa, kaya kaya?
1.48 or not 1.48, i'd still be happy (as long as i'm still a CS. haha). why? well, i must say that this semester has been the most interesting so far. :)
Sunday, March 18, 2007
For stalkers, this is your chance. =p
Acads
March 21: 4th Long Exam in Math 100
March 22: 4th Exam in Psych 148
March 26: Final Paper in Psych 148
March 27: Submission of Research Experiment in Psych 115
Defense in Psych 115
March 30: Final Exam in Math 100
Other things
March 22: Lord's Day, announcement of the new yfc execom
March 24: YFC Party
Hanna's 18th birthday celeb
(still torn. what to do? what to do?)
March 28: My brother's high school graduation
March 29: Last household meeting / bonding
No date yet: UPGK Execom Meeting
No date yet: UPGK Core Meeting
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and yet i'm still blogging.
i don't really have time to share stories to people now and this is my only outlet. this blogger for public thoughts and my semi-secret lj for private raves and rants.
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rheality: in two weeks, all of these will be over. but you know, that's not necessarily all sheer happiness for me. rhea
rhealization: i should be given an award for hiding what i mean through words and for posting too many vague things.
rheal issue: HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. WORK WORK WORK.
March 21: 4th Long Exam in Math 100
March 22: 4th Exam in Psych 148
March 26: Final Paper in Psych 148
March 27: Submission of Research Experiment in Psych 115
Defense in Psych 115
March 30: Final Exam in Math 100
Other things
March 22: Lord's Day, announcement of the new yfc execom
March 24: YFC Party
Hanna's 18th birthday celeb
(still torn. what to do? what to do?)
March 28: My brother's high school graduation
March 29: Last household meeting / bonding
No date yet: UPGK Execom Meeting
No date yet: UPGK Core Meeting
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and yet i'm still blogging.
i don't really have time to share stories to people now and this is my only outlet. this blogger for public thoughts and my semi-secret lj for private raves and rants.
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rheality: in two weeks, all of these will be over. but you know, that's not necessarily all sheer happiness for me. rhea
rhealization: i should be given an award for hiding what i mean through words and for posting too many vague things.
rheal issue: HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. WORK WORK WORK.
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